Category: 📑Journal

A very small snippet from a random evening from June 2025

A Friday evening, just after my office, I went to a stationery shop (my recent favourite place to be at). Bought myself some stuff to be used for my creative area. It gives you an another type of satisfaction after buying stationery stuff.

After my purchase, I thought of having dinner at that place. So, I thought of moving to Haldiram’s and get me my dinner and read my current e-book Bird by Bird by Ann Lamott. And there I saw two families, some sort of formal meeting it feels in beginning. Later, I have realised that they are there for some arrange marriage meeting thing. After seeing the families, I can’t focus on reading and start observing the hope so couple-to-be. They both are blushing, just like that first time teenage love. The two young one’s are communicating about their jobs (this is only I can overheard).

Sooner, matchmaking thing mixed with the random chaos of the place and it became part of the noise to me.

I finished my dinner along with read on kindle and then wrapped up my evening.

EveningOutHappinessIn

Menaka Sangwan

One summer evening, I went to my terrace to observe the blue sky with beautiful clouds. A baby mango covered in dark green leaves just saw me like it was looking for me, because I have seen her when she was just a flower. A corner of my eye just catches the view of baby mango. Our eyes just met like a river meets an ocean.

My heart ask her, is everything going good?

Mango replied, it just feels better. I am growing and want to become an adult just like another mango on adjacent tree.

Then suddenly, a noise arrives from the sky with a thunderous roar; the sound reaches the ground before the lightning (basic science principle). A few droplets fall gently onto my hand, and soon, many more descend from the sky, touching the earth and finally reaching that aspiring mango.

I catch myself thinking at a thought, “We all want to be adults, until we are”.

Exploring adult life, lately!!

Menaka Sangwan

Without any further delay, let’s go through some of moments to be remembered-

1. Seeing my favorite human beings around the clock.
2. Finally, build a website that I’m craving for many years (my procrastination can’t hold me back then).
3. Being on a journey with no expectations from others except me (& they are many, actually countless).
4. Dump the things that are making me feel low and take me in self-pity.
5. Writing journal on most of the days.
6. Having gratitude in the heart.
7. Completed that non-fiction book.
8. Started reading fiction books again.
9. Learned 4-wheeler driving.
10. That rain and meeting my favorite person.
11. Trying to do my best every day.
12. Doing my favorite thing.
13. Spending time with family.
14. Seeing my lil’ brother achieving greater heights.
15. Being in a happy state.
16. Being in spiritual self.
17. Ticking my long awaited bucket list things. Those childhood dreams are becoming reality.
18. Seeing my favorite thing in unexpected way.
19. Living the scenarios that I have imagined just a year ago.
20. Never shame me, no matter what!
21. That calls to my Mum and talking in gibberish language.
22. Seeing how manifestation actually works.
23. Seeing my work doing work for me. Adult is adulting.
24. Having coffee in my favorite Mug.
25. Listening to the playlist I’ve created during both the high and low points of my life, reliving those moments through the lyrics.
26. Creating and uploading my first blog in a chaotic situation.
27. Make time to do the things that I want to not that I need to (that stupid stuff).
28. Writing in the last moment turned out to be a masterpiece.
29. Having fries with cold coffee *n.
30. Reading the book and feeling as though the words are exactly what I’m craving at this moment. It helps me relieve the anxiety of not knowing what to do next.
31. Following my recent favorite author on a social platform and seeing his art is my favorite pastime.
32. Applying eye-linear is an art, enjoying that art.
33. Days when I woke up feeling fulfilled.
34. Seeing the things that I have made with my own hands.
35. Revisiting my bookshelf frequently just to have a look at a lovely place.
36. Buying the so-called “The Books”.
37. Spending time with Daddy while having dinner with him(is the BEST!!)
38. Started journaling from Jan and continued till Dec. Oh! I did it, how?
39. Finding that exact box that I am looking for.
40. Seeing the clean house after mess.
41. Going through some old receipts, parchies, handwriting and talk to my family about the story around them.
42. Feelings that I go through while writing these things.
43. Watching my gochu(cat) in my backyard and her that cute little pink nose in winters.
44. Waiting for my birthday.
45. Feeling more happy and optimistic in my birthday month.
46. Listening old speech of my new hero artist and I feel completely energized.
47. Fighting with brother for no reason.
48. First time writing in a new notebook. Seeing worth of every single penny.
49. Best birthday ever!! Reaching near to 30s. Enjoying my late 20s.
50. Re-reading my favorite author because he is my favorite.
51. That first water painting after a really long time.
52. Picking a new book for reading.
53. Finding ART to reboot soul.
54. Able to complete what I have started in chaos and a full mess.
55. Having breakfast made by me.
56. When I enter my balcony and peacock just appear from nowhere. Seeing their walk in the morning is best (“Morni si chaal” I have seen it for real).
57. Having khichadi with coffee, without any sugar. Ahh, what a feeling!
58. Those 5 days were worth living.
59. A thought “Can we relive the moments we want?”
60. Think while leisurely strolling.
61. Seeing how our thoughts change the situations.
62. Being assistant to Dad on his weekend job with cleaning fans and providing the exact nuts and bolts he needs at the moment.
63. Asking mom to prepare my favorite regular meal because there’s nothing like what is made with Mom’s hand and love.
64. Spending bucks without regret(Is it normal?).
65. Seeing two peachicks with their mom peahen and their walk to the nearest garden.
66. Writing for a website. Time flows at a high speed, no need to wait for it to pass.
67. Doing things that make a huge impact. Technology comes handy.
68. Doing some crazy stuff that I want to do.
69. Taking a trip with my brother.
70. Last but not least, rise.

Excuse me for the Things that I forget.

Menaka Sangwan

I tried to log few thoughts on day of birth and here it goes..

Is the weather amazing just for me? Of course, it is!!

Feeling blessed!!

Birthdays on call are so much awesome rather than text!!

Am I too lucky today?!! When you least expect or when you don’t expect then things actually happen.

Is it coincidence to read this chapter on your BirthDay?! Photo of page

Never have I ever seen such a fast delivery from Amazon. I just ordered yesterday evening and got at 9:20am. Wow!!!

done some work stuff....

That lunch is just delicious!!

I completed the blog which is pending from several months and it is for my 13 year old version. I’m not able to finish the blog when I have plenty of time but when there is scarcity of time that is the best time when my mind just speed up

Feeling creative!!

I love you Mom and even more daddy and the mostest my dear brother

Desire To Do: I want to build myself a library

साथ-साथ चलते-चलते हाथ छूट जायेंगे ऐसी राहो में मिलो ना, बातें करते-करते रात बीत जाएगी ऐसी रातो में मिलो ना|

Excited to write in my new notebook

People>>>> Things : But when people are few then things which give you happiness or peace to soul. And it makes the most sense to me today. Grateful is the one word

Warm and relaxed vibes

I’m in AWE of myself.!!

Have quick dinner and then let’s create some crazy stuff.

happppyyyyyy

Menaka Sangwan