Author: Menaka Sangwan

She used to be an overthinker, but now she channels her thoughts into writing instead of getting caught up in excessive rumination.

She feels nothing at times

Goes through it all at once

Her mind is like a sky covered with grey clouds

Barely able to see the things clearly

When storm hit the clouds its the time

Rain happens and clears sky

Clearing all tangled thoughts

Make her feel she’s her own

Complex situations work fine until math

When real world became that equations

The i (iota) is never been known

The I is lost in lots of WE

And equation remains unsolved

When will she know she’s the one

Chosen by divine to do beautiful things

Healing time feels like the most depressing part

Forgets it’s the part of the one i.e. negligible one

When she’ll know she is the whole

Not just part of THE ONE

Sky has to be blue soon for sure!!

SHE/HER.

Menaka Sangwan

First things first, please go and just watch a short film titled “Full Time” by Omeleto.

Highly recommended. You can find it on YouTube.

If you are very much involved in your beautiful world, not able to spare time for motion message then can glance below to know the reason. Here it is, it’s just below 👇

This is a poignant and reflective narrative about how life after graduation can sometimes feel like falling into a routine, almost like a trap. The metaphor of the “square” representing the cubicle is powerful—it’s symbolic of how many people can feel confined in their jobs, with the walls closing in on them as they get promoted and earn more money. But despite the larger square, the sense of fulfillment and freedom seems to shrink.

The story illustrates how a person, after graduation, gets caught in the rat race and lacks the courage to break free until retirement. By the time retirement comes, they have no energy left to pursue the things that bring them true happiness.

There were various metaphors shown in the short film-

  1. The size of a square increases along the pay check sometimes.
  2. Seeing multiple things happening in life but can’t participate in them.
  3. Exchanging time for a hobby.

The silence needs to be heard.

It’s TICKING, Take Action!!

Menaka Sangwan

Without any further delay, let’s go through some of moments to be remembered-

  1. Seeing my favorite human beings around the clock.
  2. Finally, build a website that I’m craving for many years (my procrastination can’t hold me back then).
  3. Being on a journey with no expectations from others except me (& they are many, actually countless).
  4. Dump the things that are making me feel low and take me in self-pity.
  5. Writing journal on most of the days.
  6. Having gratitude in the heart.
  7. Completed that non-fiction book.
  8. Started reading fiction books again.
  9. Learned 4-wheeler driving.
  10. That rain and meeting my favorite person.
  11. Trying to do my best every day.
  12. Doing my favorite thing.
  13. Spending time with family.
  14. Seeing my lil’ brother achieving greater heights.
  15. Being in a happy state.
  16. Being in spiritual self.
  17. Ticking my long awaited bucket list things. Those childhood dreams are becoming reality.
  18. Seeing my favorite thing in unexpected way.
  19. Living the scenarios that I have imagined just a year ago.
  20. Never shame me, no matter what!
  21. That calls to my Mum and talking in gibberish language.
  22. Seeing how manifestation actually works.
  23. Seeing my work doing work for me. Adult is adulting.
  24. Having coffee in my favorite Mug.
  25. Listening to the playlist I’ve created during both the high and low points of my life, reliving those moments through the lyrics.
  26. Creating and uploading my first blog in a chaotic situation.
  27. Make time to do the things that I want to not that I need to (that stupid stuff).
  28. Writing in the last moment turned out to be a masterpiece.
  29. Having fries with cold coffee *n.
  30. Reading the book and feeling as though the words are exactly what I’m craving at this moment. It helps me relieve the anxiety of not knowing what to do next.
  31. Following my recent favorite author on a social platform and seeing his art is my favorite pastime.
  32. Applying eye-linear is an art, enjoying that art.
  33. Days when I woke up feeling fulfilled.
  34. Seeing the things that I have made with my own hands.
  35. Revisiting my bookshelf frequently just to have a look at a lovely place.
  36. Buying the so-called “The Books”.
  37. Spending time with Daddy while having dinner with him(is the BEST!!)
  38. Started journaling from Jan and continued till Dec. Oh! I did it, how?
  39. Finding that exact box that I am looking for.
  40. Seeing the clean house after mess.
  41. Going through some old receipts, parchies, handwriting and talk to my family about the story around them.
  42. Feelings that I go through while writing these things.
  43. Watching my gochu(cat) in my backyard and her that cute little pink nose in winters.
  44. Waiting for my birthday.
  45. Feeling more happy and optimistic in my birthday month.
  46. Listening old speech of my new hero artist and I feel completely energized.
  47. Fighting with brother for no reason.
  48. First time writing in a new notebook. Seeing worth of every single penny.
  49. Best birthday ever!! Reaching near to 30s. Enjoying my late 20s.
  50. Re-reading my favorite author because he is my favorite.
  51. That first water painting after a really long time.
  52. Picking a new book for reading.
  53. Finding ART to reboot soul.
  54. Able to complete what I have started in chaos and a full mess.
  55. Having breakfast made by me.
  56. When I enter my balcony and peacock just appear from nowhere. Seeing their walk in the morning is best (“Morni si chaal” I have seen it for real).
  57. Having khichadi with coffee, without any sugar. Ahh, what a feeling!
  58. Those 5 days were worth living.
  59. A thought “Can we relive the moments we want?”
  60. Think while leisurely strolling.
  61. Seeing how our thoughts change the situations.
  62. Being assistant to Dad on his weekend job with cleaning fans and providing the exact nuts and bolts he needs at the moment.
  63. Asking mom to prepare my favorite regular meal because there’s nothing like what is made with Mom’s hand and love.
  64. Spending bucks without regret(Is it normal?).
  65. Seeing two peachicks with their mom peahen and their walk to the nearest garden.
  66. Writing for a website. Time flows at a high speed, no need to wait for it to pass.
  67. Doing things that make a huge impact. Technology comes handy.
  68. Doing some crazy stuff that I want to do.
  69. Taking a trip with my brother.
  70. Last but not least, rise.

Excuse me for the Things that I forget.

Menaka Sangwan

Recently, I went somewhere- if you know, you know; and if you don’t, no worries, I’m going to tell my favorite things otherwise too.

  1. There are always some people who wish to live the life that you are currently slogging in. So be grateful for EACH and every day you live by. Before going there, I’m just overthinking about my life that I should have figured out everything by now. Relax guys, everything will be figured out eventually😎.
  2. Also, there is another set of people (very small) who you admire and want to be like them. It is rare to found that set of people who can check most of the things in your list which you want in life. In these days I have seen such people too🥸.
  3. There is something in there which makes me cry, laugh and the best I can. I have cried my heart out and laughed until my side ached, literally. These days make life more live-able🫶🏻.
  4. I have read human beings there instead of things. Some beings been twice my age but our conversations match like twins 👯.
  5. Seen some of knowledgeable human beings with sweet heart. Perfect combo, Isn’t it?🫂.
  6. Went with zero percent expectations and come with 100% satisfaction. This is the CORE of nucleus “Last 5 DAYS”🧚‍♀️.

Live-able Experience Experienced!!

Menaka Sangwan

Gist of complete blog (providing to save your time, but you can read explanation if you want to because why not!): Think and write the things/ events/ people you want at some stage of your life.

When we are at a stage in our life and our only motivation is to achieve a THING that can be good grades, our dream college, job or some other important event. After lot of hustle, we are able to achieve the thing and but don’t get fully satisfied with it because the importance or hype we given to it is – not of that worth.

Being in that thing, we realize that sometimes the outcomes/ scenarios we imagine are not the same as when we are dreaming of it. We get lost and have no idea, what to do next and it triggers the anxiety point. Most of the time, it’s not easy to find your next big thing or even side hustle while being caught up in that so called “Achieved Success” by people.

Scenario 1: Have you ever loved a show and watched all the seasons in just a few days and then get completely lost afterwards about life.?

Scenario 2: When we’re studying for an exam tomorrow and our mind filled up with a lot of fun activities and ideas we can do in that moment, but as soon as we are done with exam, nothing excites us.

To tackle such cases, have to write the ideas/ things/ anything that can be done in your life as soon as they come up in our mind. So, in advance think, plan and write the things you want in future maybe not the next thing but can be next to next thing or next to many next things. The things written at any stage, may be several years earlier can come to our mind at most unexpected time and space when it is the most required. SO it’s best to write it at that time.

It’s a tough exercise to figure out when we achieve something because we are completely consumed by it and can become anxious if we haven’t figured out the next thing. So, have things in place to move on to the next big thing in life.

Find Next BIG THING!!

Menaka Sangwan